May 20, 2017
So in less than two weeks you will be a high school graduate. I am hoping that your little graduation present gets here in time.
I’m writing this letter for you so that you can get the little ‘bump’ you need to send you out into the world and make it big—but make it big in your way and in the process making YOUR dreams come true.
I bought a CD for you today. There are two songs there that are the reason why I bought what I bought. There are two songs that are my personal gift and message for you.
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you wanna go,
And if you’re faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin’ till you find the window,
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile.
But more than anything, more than anything
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you’re out there getting where you’re getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
Suppose it could be said better-but, when you are in doubt just remember that at least your mom is cheering you on. I realize that I have made a lot of mistakes. I’ve realized that being a mom to one child doesn’t make you good mom to all kids. My weaknesses with my oldest were sometimes still my weakness, and sometimes by the time I got to you, I had a whole new set of weaknesses. No matter how poorly I have said, “I love you.” Know that I always have, & that my dreams for you were always big, even if I couldn’t provide you with a great jumping off pad.
There will be times when I still have to be a ‘mom’. Unfortunately, that is just the rules for engagement between you and I. But, I am hoping that we can always talk about any problems we have and work them out. The thing that I am really best at and can still do for you, is to be your cheerleader. And I always will be that. And I want all the same things for you as I ever wanted for the other three:
- Be Happy. Be Healthy. 3. Follow your Dreams. 4. Don’t hurt others.
That last one is the hardest one for me. That’s the one I choke on. It’s the only one that can ever get between you and I. It’s really important to me because so many people have worked so hard hurt those around me. I’ve lived the fall out; I’ve seen the emotional devastation. That is where I draw my line in the sand.
But, having said that I cannot imagine you hurting someone on purpose, for the sake of fun or anything else. You are a really good person. The one kid who actually turned out the way I hoped all my kids would. I see a happy life for you. That is not to say you won’t hit bumps. Sometimes those bumps really hurt. Sometimes the days will get really dark. It’s just how life goes sometimes. Light a candle, say a prayer, take some really deep breaths, take a long bath, listen to music, paint, and call your mom.
One thing to remember is even when you feel really, really alone, the truth is that you are not. You have friends and family who love you and want the best for you. Even if all they can give you is a hug, and probably that’s all you’d need anyhow to be able to get out there and face the world again.
You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless
Like you’ve lost your fight
But you’ll be alright, you’ll be alright
‘Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you’re made of
You might bend, ’til you break
‘Cause it’s all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand…
You come from a LONG LINE of really tough people. Not perfect people….just really tough people. People who have faced all kinds of situations—starvation, witch hunts, wild bears, wars, homelessness, extreme cold, rape, molest, abuse. Each one not only survived but succeeded in some way, or else YOU would not be on this earth today. Each of us alive today on this earth can believe this because it’s true! And, it is all the more of a reason to celebrate YOU!
You have been handed the gift of life. Each person in your life is a gift. Maybe there will be times when you can’t see it, but EVERYONE who crosses your path will share something with you, even if all it is ‘just’ a smile. It might be a small or a great gift: wisdom, fact, love, a hug, a meal, a theory, maybe someday a child. Never take it for granted. There might be a billion of us here on earth, but there is only one me and only one you!! That makes us special. It makes being your mom special!
Thank you for choosing me to be your mom. Thank you for the GIFT of being YOU!!
I do LOVE YOU!!! & I always will!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox